Since Monday night I've done nothing.....Every day I wake up and clock-watch until my husband can come home and take my daughter off my hands. I can't remember the last time I was this sick. I think I have borderline pneumonia! No energy, my chest is sore and I'm bringing up things I've never seen before. Today is the first day I haven't been sweating with chills since Monday. I finally slept a bit last night but only with the help of some serious medication. I feel so guilty that I've been such a bad mother to my daughter - she has been amazing with me this week! I also have a huge guilt trip that I keep giving myself simply because I STILL haven't made it to the gym yet.....I am so angry!
I hate being sick - and now I'll sink back into my pity party.....
Thursday, December 9, 2010
Monday, December 6, 2010
Feelin good!!!!
I know it was only a 2 pound weight loss this week - but man I feel good! Motivated, Strong!
Maybe it's because IT has started!
By IT, I mean the hustle and bustle of Christmas and the holidays! The overeating, eating out, the I'm too lazy and too busy to cook, so let's order in; the mall food; the party food; the sweets, cookies and baked goods that aren't around all year long; the cold, winter, snowy days where the absolute LAST thing you want to do is exercise! The time of year where you have every excuse to get fatter and fatter!!!!! and you know what? I lost weight! Hee Hee! This is doable!
If I make no other goals this month - I just don't want to gain anything....I want to beat this and prove it to myself that I can get through the hardest time of year without gaining. If I can do it this month, why couldn't I do it every other month?
Just a thought.....
Maybe it's because IT has started!
By IT, I mean the hustle and bustle of Christmas and the holidays! The overeating, eating out, the I'm too lazy and too busy to cook, so let's order in; the mall food; the party food; the sweets, cookies and baked goods that aren't around all year long; the cold, winter, snowy days where the absolute LAST thing you want to do is exercise! The time of year where you have every excuse to get fatter and fatter!!!!! and you know what? I lost weight! Hee Hee! This is doable!
If I make no other goals this month - I just don't want to gain anything....I want to beat this and prove it to myself that I can get through the hardest time of year without gaining. If I can do it this month, why couldn't I do it every other month?
Just a thought.....
Thursday, December 2, 2010
It's Been a while...again....
because again I've fallen off the wagon - I can't seem to get this......why is this so difficult for me? I feel so low and guilty and like I will never be able to do this.....so then I eat and it makes me feel better for a millisecond (because i love food) but then i feel guilty for eating......
I need some serious motivation and determination to YET AGAIN START OVER!!!!!
So, after 2 days of talking (whining and crying) to my hubby about my weight and losing it - he came home with the most amazing thing.....a corporate gym membership to Goodlife Fitness, and that's not all ladies and gentlemen, he brought home a brand new pair of asics running shoes. What did I do to deserve this man? He is so supportive and amazing with everything. He just goes with the flow of whatever I am feeling.....
but back to the gift - there were 2 problems - Number 1, The membership didn't start until January.....I figure I'll be up another 10 lbs if I let it go until then! So, Goodlife is offering a $14 for 14 days deal and what do you know, my hubby gets that too - "In case I wanted to start early" - Could he be any sweeter? Perfect! Problem 2 - and this is the big one - getting my big behind there without feeling intimidated and embarrassed. I don't get it, before I've never been embarrassed like this to do active things - why now? Is it partly having a baby? the changes my body has gone through? I'm not sure, but all I know is that I need to do it.....Here's hoping I can get up the courage to go tomorrow!
Wish me luck, and motivation if you can......
I need some serious motivation and determination to YET AGAIN START OVER!!!!!
So, after 2 days of talking (whining and crying) to my hubby about my weight and losing it - he came home with the most amazing thing.....a corporate gym membership to Goodlife Fitness, and that's not all ladies and gentlemen, he brought home a brand new pair of asics running shoes. What did I do to deserve this man? He is so supportive and amazing with everything. He just goes with the flow of whatever I am feeling.....
but back to the gift - there were 2 problems - Number 1, The membership didn't start until January.....I figure I'll be up another 10 lbs if I let it go until then! So, Goodlife is offering a $14 for 14 days deal and what do you know, my hubby gets that too - "In case I wanted to start early" - Could he be any sweeter? Perfect! Problem 2 - and this is the big one - getting my big behind there without feeling intimidated and embarrassed. I don't get it, before I've never been embarrassed like this to do active things - why now? Is it partly having a baby? the changes my body has gone through? I'm not sure, but all I know is that I need to do it.....Here's hoping I can get up the courage to go tomorrow!
Wish me luck, and motivation if you can......
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